He made me do it.

It took the horse. It took me wanting and needing to go see my horse to cut the air bags out of the dash and the steering wheel of my car and DRIVE it to the barn. Wrecked. Hello? I have officially entered the horse-crazy-white-trash stage of my life. No, seriously. There is a flagpole in my front yard and everyone says "OH! is that the place with the rebel flag in front?". Its not there now but I'm here to tell you it was an omen. But I'm not worried, NOOOooooOOO, because my dad said it's "the best decision I've made in the last 6 months." (to just go ahead and drive it already)...


I cut the airbags out

I guess that means I have to drive it to work too- in morning rush hour traffic. Wrecked.
I have a court date so that I can go defend my traffic record honor. The cop wrote in the full report that I hit the girl in front of me first. She isn't saying that. Neither is anyone in my car. I'm probably going to get in some kind of trouble for the insurance issue, and something tells me it will be in the form of a large fine. In which I will choose be-heading.

The car that I was driving, the 1985 toyota celica? Well. It broke down. I was again without a car, my boss has been picking me up for work. Um, I need to re-phrase that. My boss has been going completely out of his way to pick me up for work in the morning, and drop me off after. Yes, I am very grateful. It's cool, he's got a jeep. It's funny to watch him wave to other jeep-ers. He reaaaally doesn't want to.

I've made some really great friends down here and that makes me happy. I've had so much FUN this summer.  Some of those nights I will never forget...

-Sitting at the car races eating fresh boiled peanuts as the dust flies everywhere, watching the same person win every week. That was alright though because that person is my friend's husband. 

I never did win a styro-foam plate full of shaved ice in half-time ticket call. I did sneak in a 20oz. of Heinekin once (it's a dry county) I mean c'mon. we ARE IN ALABAMA. AT the CAR RACES. I snuck it into a large fountain drink cup, the look on A's daughter's face when she took a sip was pretty funny.

-the night Bryon rolled up to me at the beach bar all sly, b'out 4'6 with his unbuttoned shirt like pimp Bart Simpson..."Hay Baby. My name's BRY-ON what's yours?" I had to get to the bottom of this, and I did.
This dude just decided to start spelling his name B R Y O N instead of Brian. Awh how cute.

- "splits" the gymnast. Splits's nickname was well deserved because he would at any time in the middle of the whole bar DO. A . SPLIT. I shit you not. Totally on the juice. His friend showed up out of nowhere, introduced himself, gave us girls his business card that said "something something USED CARS" and disappeared. I have a feeling he went straight to the *bathroom.

- The night dancing with "the puppy". There are other "puppies", but this is the Original. That was a great one. There were people just standing there watching as we jumped around to the bands rendition of Motley's Crue's "Girls, Girls, Girls". They came up to us and told us "you guys are great!"when the band stopped - can you believe that?. What we were was happy, on the beach and drunk! The puppy likes Techno and he likes to dance. I LOVED it. It was sweaty, it was full of energy (and MARGARITAS!) and it was a FUN night.

-The night of  Leggs's birthday party...In the middle of the Violent Femmes song I  turned around to see her surrounded by more than a few suitors. All at the same time. Damn that white skirt..."oh, hey "bb", hey "pants", hey "green feeet" and HELLLLO sprt-zah.!" 

-So we went swimming in the hotel's pool after the bar closed. So we were laughing. Ok, so maybe I was the one giggling up a spell as the security guard came out and told us we had to leave. He said that he would have let us swim longer but they were getting calls. 
"So you have been watching us swim for the last hour?"

"Yep. There are security cameras all over the place."

"SHIT. If I'da known that we would have been getting naked, prolly could've swam for a little while more eh?"

"prolly."

I was getting a little worried at first, being down here alone and all but it's turned out great. I love my job and i'm having some fun too. I have friends that are there for me when I'm in need. And no matter how hot it gets, how tough it is, how long it's been since I had food, as wrecked as my car is, I would STILL not want to be in Ohio specifically Youngstown.

What the hell are we going to do in the winter? oh, and
I just got invited to join a Mardi-Gras crewe!

The thing that keeps me

Ok, it's been about a month. Look at how much better he looks!
the rice bran is working!

then


now
Its been about a month.
I think that when I start showing him his show name will be Dutiful Dusty Dancer. I like that.
He's eating treats now. The other day Ashley walked up to him with a carrot and he bit into it- he wanted nothing to do with carrots before. He likes Fla-va-Ice, and Gatoraid which is good because so do I.

I have been riding him mostly every day, a steady schedule of four to five times a week in a full cheek snaffle soon to be replaced by a eggbut snaffle. I rode him in a loose ring the other day and he was noticably softer in the mouth. I liked it. I'm just starting to put him into light "frame" to teach him that his ass has the power of a jet rocket. If he uses it while arching his back, thus making his front end light and elegant he will be very proud of himself, and very strong.

He is very willing under the saddle. He is immediately responsive to any aid applied, and tries to figure it out swiftly. He says no once and doesn't buck, kick out, or run away when he's corrected. I'm not riding with a whip and I don't plan to until he's starts more advanced training. He isn't crazy if he hasn't been ridden and he likes to work (one thing I am very cautious to sustain).

He's doing very well if you ask me. We ride in a beautiful OPEN field that I was VERY afraid of -and he's no threat. No threat to YOU-KNOW-WHAT...

The cabinet shop is behind the field and there are saws, air guns and compressors being used while we are riding. He's absolutely wonderful. Pretty non spook as far as I've know him. The horses are turned out in the pasture right next to us and he doesn't even mind. He just keeps his ears back and focused on me. He's teaching me that I can trust him.

I feel that I made a very good decision with this horse. Although he's 40 minutes away, he's helping me IMMENSELY. He's helping me live my life. He's a gentle soul, I feel that he is also learning to trust me. When I put him out into the pasture after riding I lead him in, turn him around to face me and I take off his halter. As of lately, he just stands there. Like he doesn't want me to leave. I think he likes me too. I am more attached to this horse than any that I've been attached to. We're getting along famously. The one thing that keeps me.

Summer sent me a link to this greeting card site today. I'm REALLY enjoying it!

hey i got your my space bulletin in my blog

1. How do you feel about the last person you kissed?
I feel like he's, um..I feel good about him?

2. What's bothering you right now?
whel. ha. Funny you should ask. Some high school girl crashed into the back of my jetta so that I could feel what it feels like to get an air bag in the face... and now it's sitting in my yard with the air bags hanging out like it's poor guts guts.



Seems as though it's better to KNOW that you have car insurance than to THINK you have car insurance. who'da thunk?


Look at how mad it is.

3. Does your mom go to college?
Not it there's not anything "drastically-marked-down" there.

4. What is in your wallet
a sticker that says "Never trust a preacher with a boner" I really like giggling at you when your offended by it. OH! and my Progressive CAR INSURANCE CARD.

5.Whats on the desktop of your background?


6. Background on your cell phone?
A picture of me and my friend joe. Doing what we do...


7. Next time you will kiss someone?
The next time someone wants to kiss me.

8. What reminds you of your ex?
lots of things.

9. What did you do today?
worked. Got car to drive from my boss(!), came home. Ordered a calzone from Ozone Pizza. Worked more.

10. Life:
Your hands and feet are mangoes, but your gonna be a genius anyway.

11. Where is your heart?
In the barn.

12. Doing this weekend?
working on my computer and hanging out with Dusty and my friends for a little.

13. Wearing?
Old School Geneva-on-the-Lake T-shirt blue, & stretchy shorts. Flip Flops.

14. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Thorndike

15. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
emmm ooohh eeennnn eeeee why. Lots of it.

16. Listening to?
Mutch farting.

17. Have you ever kissed anyone named Patty?
No, but I knocked a girl over named Ilean.

18. What do you smell like?
hopefully mangoes.

19. How are you different now compared to the past?
I strive to improve myself everyday. In every way.

20. On your bed, what is your favorite thing??
my puppy

21. Do you believe in a soul mate?
yes

22. What comes out of your mouth constantly?
"HEY SEXY!"

23. Do you remember your dreams?
Sometimes. Especilly the one when I dream that I just killed someone and I'm running to find the mafia to get me out of it and get rid of the body. (You can take the girl out of Youngstown...)

24. Do you burn easily in the sun?
Nawh. Not really. I TAN



25. Have you ever been gambling?
Oh yah. The first time I played craps the dice went sailing down the hallway of the RIO casino in Vegas.

26. What's something you wish you could understand better?
How the hell the photos get from my cell phone to my computer in zero point three milli-seconds. Or how you can transfer large MB's of files on a wireless connection. Yes. That is it. That is the only thing that I wish I could understand better that actually has a logical, mathmatical answer

27. What did you do last weekend?
Went to the beach. Had Frozen Margaritas with an extra shot.

28. Who do you miss?
I might miss him but it's the best thing that could've happened.

29. Who is the last person you hugged?
Miss Joe

30. What do you like to do in clothes?
um well, I guess this is where the person making up the questions should've went to sleep a few hours ago? I can tell you what I don't like to do in clothes though. swim. In. that. beautiful. water.

31. Who was the last person you went somewhere with?
This afternoon I went with my boss to get a car he's letting me use until I can get mine together. (THANK GOD) I got my FLORIDA LICENSE plates this morning! (haha, yah. Laugh. I pretty much play dumb when this comes up...I've heard you have 30 days to get new state plates when you move. Not to worry. This comes as "things to stay on-top of" learned in the all inclusive incident otherwise known as "THE SMELLY SMOKEY AIR BAG that knocked some sense into me."

32. What was the last text message you received?
"What up baby?"


33. Last time you ate a home grown tomato?
Last summer in Ohio.

34. What is one thing you like to do with your significant other?
Play Scrabble

37. Whose house did you go to last night?
Nobody's.

38. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Technically Beckee. But I was there also.

39. Do you like someone right now?
I like just about everyone.

40. What do you wear more, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
Slacks.

41.What is the last movie you watched? With who?
"300" with Beckee and Melanie.

42. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
Jack and Coke
Frozen Margarita
French Martini

43. What are you excited about?
Training Dusty.

44. Do you want someone you can't have?
Sure, I do that.

45. Who was last to slap your butt?
Miss Joe

46. Where was the last place you went?
Ozone Pizza to get my calzone.

47. What's on your mind right now?
where I can get a Xanex.

48. Have you cried lately?
Well, to put it mildly. I have been tearing- at various time throughout the days for the past two weeks. I also have been having mild "attacks" when I see my Jetta sitting in the grass.

Hanging on to positivity and thinking of checking myself into a hospital somewhere until someone told me that it's much harder to get OUT once you get in...

49. If an unstoppable force comes across an unmovable object, then what happens?
Then it's smokey and it STINKS really bad. Face stings. Lip is fat. A few fingers feel like they're broken.
Then you start running across freeways and telling cops about the black cars that were there that left the scene (that were really blue and sitting there the whole time).

50. Is taking a shower a dai!y habit?
yeeeeeAAAAAhhh?